The reality bites

Today is my 13th day in HKL. Last night my Deputy Sec General came. Apparently her husband was in the same ward and strangely our path never crossed until last evening. Small world.

That aside, the most anticipated time came late yesterday afternoon. Dr Lee and his team came with CT scan result. It confirmed my  greatest fear. I had liver cancer due to prolonged hepatitis B infection. He said it came from the mother. How could he blamed my beloved mother for this?. He said the rest of the family should be tested for Hep B virus.

The treatment plan had to postponed to Monday as it was already late most of the specialists have gone. I couldn’t quite describe my feelings. I was pretty neutral, blank, and some from hope still there. I believe Allah has plans for me. If this is way for me to go so be it. I can only pray to Him. My wife was also around when Dr Lee explained the whole thing. She was very calm. Extremely. I really admire her courage. I guessed she anticipated this. As usual she would provide a little sermon saying all this will at least clear some of my sins. I must not lost hope. We must strive for a cure. For every disease except death there is a cure. What a wonderful wife I have. How lucky I am.

 

 

 

13 thoughts on “The reality bites

  1. Its best to know at an earlier stage. We must fight on. I will continuosly doa for you in my prayers.take care old ftiend. We will walk through this together.

  2. We knew each other a long time ago as students in England. I’m sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I am a cancer survivor too. Breast cancer 2001. Acinic cell carcinoma 2014. Who knows what is in store for each of us in this life time? Yet we must persevere. You are in my thoughts and prayers. If possible, do keep writing. Your stories are simply told yet compelling.

  3. “When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: let them also, with a will, listen to My call, and believe in Me: that they may walk in the right way.” (al-Baqarah 2:186) 

    Al-Fatih buat almarhum Tn Hj Shamsuddin yang disayangi…

  4. Al-Fatihan..Ya Allah ampuni dosa hambaMu ini dan tempatkanlah dia dalam golongan orang-orang yang soleh….-Ameen. Tarikh pemergian Tn. Hj. sama dengan tarikh hari ulang tahun kelahiran saya iaitu 15 Disember 2015

  5. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh allahyarham. Dia adalah insan yg sangat baik pd saya. Banyak membantu memudahkan kerja saya. Al faatihah..

  6. May your soul Rest in peace boss…we dearly miss you..you were my 1st KPP when i first joint BTP HQ and being put in your sector…that is TV Pendidikan…you taught me alot of new things. You were also the 1st KPP to come along in the road show for TM in Kuching few years back…then you were also the 1st KPP to lepak with me n gilbert in Kuala Terengganu when we were doing road show with TM… I miss you boss…😦

  7. salam takziah buat family almarhum dan seluruh warga BTP
    Aruah seorang yang baik dan kaya dengan senyumn. Muga ALLAH mencucuri rahmat berterusan buat rohnya dan ditempatkan di kalangan solihin

    Al fatihah buat aruah

  8. Thank u Allah for 29 yrs n 1 month of wonderful life together. The last 1 month was a test for him n us. We miss him dearly. Till we meet in jannah insyaallah.

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